Change is the foundation of life
There have been times in my life where I wanted to stop the whole world in it's tracks. I want many many things I'm never going to get. I want someone to live my life for me! I want to go down several different roads all at the same time for they all lead to so many different desinations, each as unforgiving as the last, each looking as wonderful as the last. At times the road I have chosen is a lonely one. I do all my own stunts in life... and I don't have the option of safty nets, unless I waste my time trying to build them for myself. It's me and only me. I've chosen it to be that way because since I've left I've come to realize that it's a long way home. Let me introduce myself. The story of my life is not pretty, in fact if you made it into a movie it ought to come with a rating! And for those of you who are thinking right now that I walk around feeling sorry for myself, dump them ideas at the door. I don't have time to be sorry, or to cry, I ahve enough time in life to change things... and that is what I intend to try to do. Here, now, at about 12:30 at night, is the time I have to reflect on my life and the things that have happened. if it sounds like a snot nosed brat barely out of the schoolroom, speaking about things that have happend and can't be changed, well it is. I speak of things I should know nothing about. I work to see to it that no one else needlessly has to. Here is to hoping that just one person will take the time to read this and take it to heart, if not to understand, than to learn. TO learn to change the way things are. Just as I try to do every day of my life.
